So where’s my game at now? Well, it’s not been easy the last year to be honest. I had a run of success with daygame and banged five hotties back to back last year, started (open) dating one of them and since then everything has been shit.
Or rather it hasn’t, really, but that’s just the human knack of only focusing on negatives. To be precise, I haven’t yet gotten what I want but what I want is really hard to get. What I want is, as a soon-to-be-40 year old male of average looks, with an overweight body, shaved head and no great social circle or ‘ecosystem’ job, to be able to pull and bang sexy girls at least fifteen years my junior. For most blue pill guys that would seem akin to black magic.
But it’s not by any means impossible. I know several men who do just that.
Being positive I’d say the good side of my current situation is something very sweet indeed, that there are still major advances to be made in my game and those advances, should I enact them, will more than counteract my ageing and leave me far in the net positive. I’m at the sweet spot where I can still get gains from tightening up my game inner game and my technique.
Looking at the last year, and in particular the last month here in Eastern Europe, I’ve had a large number of near misses. The 25 year-old French girl on my bed, with the perfect body and G-cup tits… whom I didn’t fuck. The 21 year old Hungarian, almost massively chest-meated, I was kissing on a date within half an hour. The Jordanian air-hostess whose tits I sucked in the pub forty minutes after meeting her. The list goes on and on.
It’s not bad luck, it’s just that my earlier success was blinding good luck. Absolute dead-cert God-gifted ‘Yes’ girls. With every near miss since then there’ve been explicit mistakes in my game, even if I don’t know what all of them are.
A single roll of the dice and I can go, in minutes, from zero to hero. I had a date yesterday with a twenty year old Russian science prodigy and fashion model. A date the week before with an 18 year old Russian student with a porn-star body. The good news is that I can get these girls into me and on dates. Now I just need to fuck them.
A few years ago it was unimagineable to me to kiss a girl on a first date. Now I do this with 80% of my dates. I hope that at some point the same will happen with fucking. If I keep doing the same thing it won’t. If I try new things and self-assess, it might do.
I’ve got a lot more to say on this topic. I have ideas what I might be doing wrong, and I want to go through them; but I guess I should keep my posts smaller and more frequent.
And yes, I changed the blog styling. It wasn’t me.